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BB's 'Hidden' Journal
My online record of mostly rantings and complaints.
DEEP breathes......
kay lets see if i can manage to type.
well on the bright side my sociopathic episode is over!
on the dark side, my sociopathic episode is over before the 16th.
im like crying and s**t and am bout ready to just start packing up my stuff to leave for my grandmothers. as awful as it is, at this rate theres no way im going to pass my review or my classes. good thing i can type without looking, else i'd be unable to type right now. I really needed help from my brother in my art class cuz I was using his assignments for my folder. And I needed my dads help in Tech/workshop but he of course says he has been waiting on me for ages. Which is total BULL s**t!!!! every time I turn around hes playing on his computer or watching damned football games. I needed mum to help me with math, cuz I just cant do it myself! But I dont even know whats shes been doing. Im going to fail my piano class anyways.....I think I am doing a'right in my other class......but oh well! their s**t is much more important than helping me, so I'll just kiss what small and insignificant life I had away and move to grandmothers. See how they like doing all the work I did for them, trying to understand the little ones, or dealing with errands and crap having to take them along. Maybe then they wont think their reading or playing games is more important than helping me for A SINGLE BLOODY DAY!!! heaven fobid im only 15 and need just a little help doing something! UGH! dont know what i feel worse, sadness, or anger.
I've always stopped what I was doing, or put my stuff offf to help them, but when I ask for help for once, no one can be bothered. Bout as hurtful as being forgotten.
which is worse you think? being abandoned or forgotten?

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    dbz_lalala
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    Sun Feb 13, 2011 @ 09:15pm


    both is, being abandoned most likely will give you more scars and fears then you really want to deal with, then there's being forgotten something that people easily do now adays it'll make you feel useless, unimportant, wanting to destroy them. I have actually felt both. One Abandoned by my older sister Amanda. I didn't see her for 2 years I remember feeling lost and confused being stuck in my room or go outside into the woods and not wanting anyone around me. Then she came back, I learned that mom was keeping her away each time she would want to see me cause she moved to my dads house because of the abuse me and her have gotten from mom had been getting worse and she thought that if she goes away and teach mom a lesson she'll leave me alone but sadly I remember her too much of my dad. Then there is forgotten, for me people have forgetten I'm even here more then once it used to be 95% of the time they didn't even know I was home or there even in a crowd of people my family wouldn't know I'm really there expect my dads side and Amanda. I wanted to run away a few times but never did because i didn't trust mom at all with my other siblings which I still don't trust her. blah I felt like commenting once I finished reading this, well that's my input on being abandoned and forgotten


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