didnt feel like going back to edit last entry. i never edit these things sweatdrop
anyways. i relized like two days ago or whenever it was that i last wrote in this thing, that i had a sociopathic episode i think it was two years ago. a sociopath is someone who angers easily and doesnt really feel remorse or any positive emotion. bout two years ago right after i finished my sentence of community service for a 2nd degree assault i didnt commit,(which was december jan ish) i was pretty much a blob. i just sat around doing nothing, caring for nothing, and got very pissed off for no reason. course me being me, i didnt notice it untill that october when my mums grandmother died. they were close, and she visited her every sunday while we were at kentucky where she lives. and when she died my mother just broke down crieing. a lot. and the first thought that came into my head seeing her cry as she told me she died, was *shudders* why the hell is she crying? can you believe that? my mother is crying cuz her grandmother just died four hours ago and i think that??? didnt even think it nicely. ugh. reminds me how awful a person i can be. *deletes rant* anyways. my mother almost admitted me into some kinds of mental ward that year, but luckily for me, she forgot bout it when her grandmother died, and i managed to ditch my sociopathic mind set before she got 'round to it. *sighs* well since i've already ranted bout how unfair it is how good people die, and not so nice people live, ill save you from reading it again.
 BSPBleach · Sat Jan 29, 2011 @ 11:30pm · 0 Comments |
