I collected my self and went outside to see what the noise was. It was a father and daughter. it looked like the rest of the family of the 3 dead people inside the store.
They Questioned me on how I got blood on me and why I took there food. I didn't even know I had blood on me. I showered that day so it must have been fresh and I was hungry so I took there food. They left in a hurry and asked for no more trouble out of me. It seemed like they had a hatred for me. But then again I could have killed there family, my eyes are yellow and I stole their food.
I seem to be loosing my self. Every time I look up from writing in my journal it seems like only a few seconds have gone by but in reality it has been hours. I don't know what's happening to me. & I think it's finally setting in. Before all this I didn't care that I had yellows eyes. I acted like it was just me changing. But that isn't the case at all.
I don't want black hair and yellow eyes. I just want to leave this place and find my father. I don't know why I am still here. I should be on the road.. but I can't leave, not yet. I want a vacation from this. I want to gather my self so that when I see father again I can be sane and happy. I also want to explain why I look like this.. but I can't. I just want to get ride of these eyes. The hair I don't mind so much. I can cut it everyday and say I dyed it. So he won't know it is constantly growing and permanently black.
The only good thing that has happened to me threw out this whole thing (and yes I guess something good can happen when the world ends) is that the commons and specials don't think of me as a human.. wait .. that isn't good at all.
Idea 1- I am a symptom serving carrier
Idea 2- I am a type of hive leader (queen bee)
Idea 3- Something worse then I can even imagine
If it's idea one then I could possibly be spreading it. As a carrier you have the illness/disease but don't show symptoms. So I could be half and half? still spreading it but having some symptoms.
Or idea two which i favor. Is that I have somehow come across a rare strain and it infected me then gave me the special trait that is in my genes.
Example- Fat person being a boomer, emotional female being a witch, A smoker being a.. well smoker.
Why I am un-noticed and strangely ignored may be explained by Idea 2. Now if I was some type of leader I would have to test it. By being attacked or endangered and my "Hive" coming to protect me. Which sounds excellent but may come to some major disadvantages along the road.
or it's something I cannot yet explain and it's worse then I think. It could be this because I blank out and I sometimes take part in Zombie like activities. i will have to test this tomorrow after I eat and sleep. I'm also going to try and see if the Zombies have been changing, like if they were just commons then turned into specials, and if this thing has a name or a possible cure. I know the father didn't want me talking to him but it's not like it's causing trouble or anything.l
I'll add the rest in tomorrow after lunch. so I can have time to process.
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