Well today is rather quiet, and I feel a little better today...It's in these quiet moments I like to think about her...Not about the bad memories we shared, but the good ones, and the Christina that I fell in love with...
I remember how it was all that time ago, how much happier it was..sure we struggled, but everyone does sometimes, and it was completely worth it...
Christina was so amazing though...back then she was so free...so innocent...and still so beautiful...I wish she'd know that I still think she's beautiful, as beautiful as I thought she was when I fell in love with her...
This Christina that I fell in love with though...She is an angel...She seems so childish at times, but so free, and I realize that's what I love about her..Thinking back at those better times it all involved that part of her..
Although I had been rather unappreciative of that side of her at first...but now that I look back, I want that part of her to show again...It's amazing..So mysterious..So eccentric..so beautiful..
I think about being in the field with her like that, and just dancing with her until nightfall, and then snuggling in the grass with her all night just looking at the stars and sharing our thoughts with each other..it just gives me so many beautiful thoughts...She changed me, she really did...She is the most amazing thing that ever happened to me..a truly life changing experience, being with her..
I love her...with all my heart, and I am forever hers...Maybe someday when she comes home she'll see that for sure, and we can go back to that way again..no more struggle, just she and I together...as it was always meant to be...
Christina is definitely her...the angel that I always imagined her to be..just sometimes even angels fall..but Christina will come back, she will be alright...and then we will be together, forever and ever...
The memories with her..the Christina I remember...She's still there, I know she is..and someday she will come again..until then these thoughts will live on in my heart forever..
I love you Christina...<3
Forever and ever...<3
 II Xero II · Tue Dec 29, 2009 @ 08:36pm · 0 Comments |
