...I feel like I've just been teased....
I just wrote my journal entry, and after I begged yet again to hear from Christina again, my phone rings...
It was a withheld number, so I thought it may be her since last time she was away whenever she called me the number was withheld...
To my dismay it wasn't her....Whatever it was, they hung up right after I answered....
....Why...? Why am I being tormented so...? All I want is to hear from Christina again, and I get this..? Probably nothing more than a stupid prank call and they chickened out when I answered the phone....
Now that...that was a knife to the heart right there...I feel worse than ever now...thanks a lot...my eyes are wide open now, I can't believe this happened to me...I'm shaking again, I feel numb...I feel so...disappointed...
I've never had my hopes soar up so high only to have them dashed so quickly...It feels like s**t...
Why...Why must it be this way..?
Were you just teasing me..? But why..?
I just wanna hear from her again God...
please...
-sigh-....
8:15 PM:
It happened again...dammit...who is doing this to me? Who the hell is tormenting me like this...
Why...? Why am I being tormented so...?
What the hell kind of sick game is this...
Is it you..? Are you really there..? But if so, why did you hang up..? Why do you keep getting disconnected..? What's going on..? Why is this happening..?
Why...
Why....
Why.....?
9:00 PM:
So it wasn't you...It was just some completely random event I guess....but I have other news, perhaps now this is finally it...maybe now you'll finally be ok and get to that level anyways after all...
My fingers are crossed, and my hands are folded...
Thank you God....
Now please...Continue to be with her...Bring her home soon...
Thank you....
I love you Christina...<3
 II Xero II · Tue Dec 29, 2009 @ 02:58am · 0 Comments |
