I hate crying. It annoys me and makes me feel weak. But I can't help these tears from flowing. Why does his parents fight? Why get a devorce? Why move out of the state? What happened to going to high school together? What happened to keeping me from cutting myself? What happened to keeping me from stiching myself? What happened to sleep overs? What happened to my mother katering your party? What happened to saying you won't leave? You were the only one I believed wouldn't. What happened? I thought out of all the people I knew I could trust you'd stay. I know you hate your father... But is it so bad that you're leaving? I was going to go to you when I leave next two months from now. But now I'm forced to stay. You gave me my first straight kiss even though I didn't consider you a boy. I still don't. -giggles... still crying- I know you are but I don't care. I'm not taking this well. But it isn't about me. It's about your happyness living with your mother... So many memories. So little times. You took me to my first con... You showed me I was in love with Hannah then you helped distroy the relationship with the text. You were their when Ashton ended it. I was there when Charles ended it with you.-coughdumbasscough- You were there when Russel Frank kissed me and thought of him as my first straight kiss... You've always been there when I needed you. But... Since you're leaving... Who's going to be there? School friends that I just met... When I knew you for 3 years going on 4? Who can I trust that I can cry in front of? We'll still be best friends forever but something just won't be the same since you're gone. It'll be a void. It'll be a missing peice of the puzzle. It'll be. . . a mystery.
 Wuv Chan · Fri Dec 25, 2009 @ 02:51am · 0 Comments |
Help me :< I want this as much as I wanted my eyes. And you know I never take the blessing off.