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I feel so crapy. I cant make a difference anymore. Like I could at first, but....At least then...I felt like I mattered....Well....Not really. I mattered then as much as I do now. Im lower than dirt. No. I take it back. I cant be compared 2 dirt. It has more purpose than me. I dont get it. When ppl walk all over it, it doesn't do any thing about it. No because its inanimate, I know that. But if it was I know it wouldnt. I wish I wasn't like that. I should stand up 4 myself, but I cant. Im broken. Im useless. Im not worthy of life. But at the same time, I never wanted it. I never asked 2 be born. I never wanted 2 be born. I never wanted 2 be born. I never wanted.......2 be born.....Hmph. U know its hard 2 say things like that...When ur staring straight down at me like that. U say I luv u, but what do I do about it? Of course...I dont wanna say it sometimes...When Im like this.......I just cant. I cant say I luv u. Even when I know 4 a fact that I do. But this side of me...I just...I feel that luv isnt REAL. Im so used 2 the darkness, I only know HATRED and SORROW. I only know how 2 make u bleed. I cant mend u. I wish I couldn't hurt u. I wish I could mend u as much as u heal me. But I can't. I know I hurt u in the past. And I feel the future may get worse. So Im sorry. I hope ull luv me still. Just alittle longer. Just luv me untill I die. U dont have 2 wait so long. So plz.....Luv me 4 alittle longer...Im....Almost.....dead...Just kiss me one more time....plz...As I cry this last tear. My tears of blood...