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Brain: "Christ almighty, just give it up already."
Heart: "No. Someday, everything will turn out just fine."
Brain: "So, stupid or blind? Which are you?"
Heart: "You just don't understand what it feels like."
Brain: "I don't need to understand or to feel. See, the problem with you is that you rely way too much on what you're feeling than what makes sense. Duh, you idiot, he doesn't want you. Wake up. Move on."
Heart: "...No. I'm going to wait. Someday, we--"
Brain: "No, dumbass, there is no 'we' between him and yourself. There never was and there never will be. When are you going to realize that?"
Heart: "I believe in it. I have faith that it'll happen."
Brain: "What a useless dreamer you are. HELLO, is there anyone in there? Do you understand what I'm saying to you? You have no chance."
Heart: "I'm just not going to listen to you anymore."
Brain: "Fine, you don't have to. But the more you keep lying to yourself, the longer it'll hurt."
Heart: "...He wouldn't hurt me."
Brain: "He already has."
Heart: "...He didn't mean it."
Brain: "Yes, he did. He said so."
Heart: "Shut up already."
Brain: "Look, you can just stay in your little dream world all you want, all right? And while you're there, entertaining the hope that someday he'll see just how much you mean to him, I just want you to pet the unicorns and say hello to the fairies for me as well."
Heart: "...I love him."
Brain: "But he doesn't love you. Get up. Move on. Forget him."
Heart: "I can't forget him..."
Brain: "You're just setting yourself up for another big disappointment. He'll get what he wants from you and leave you in the dust just like he did before. He'll build up your hopes with sweet words and affection, but as soon as 'he' comes back, you'll just go back to being a silver medal. Second place. A consolation prize. You're just a way to pass the time while 'he's' gone. Your feelings aren't important to him. As long as he's feeling happy, how you're feeling is unimportant. Don't you understand that?"
Heart: "..."
Brain: "Why do I even bother trying? Do whatever the hell you want. You keep all the stupid little promises you made to him. You've trapped yourself with those promises. You could have walked away a long time ago and spared yourself all this unnecessary pain, but noooo you just had to promise to stay by his side, no matter what. That was genius move, Sherlock."
Heart: "It was the right thing to do."
Brain: "Right, but stupid. And you know what's even more stupid? The fact that no matter how many times 'he' walks out and ignores him, you will always be there to comfort and console him, and no matter what you do, his feelings for you will never change. You'll always be nothing more than his little puppet. No matter how much love you give him, no matter how little love 'he' gives him, things will never change. 'He' could ignore him for a year and a half, run off with his little friends, have a grand time of it all, and make all the excuses he wants. You know what'll happen when 'he' comes back? The person you love, the person you've told to keep faith in it, the person you've tried so hard to cheer up and keep happy will just run back to him like a lost little puppy. What makes me even more sick is how you try to make excuses on 'his' behalf, offering reasons and solutions as to why the person who supposedly loves him so much doesn't seem to care enough to come around. He was gone for nearly a month and you made excuses for him, just so the person you loved would feel assured and at ease. Who knows what the hell he was doing then? Do you really think he was just sitting around and worrying about the person you love? Bullshit. He was probably out having the time of his life with someone he recently met and had more time for. And even through all of this, you still, you have the audacity to hope. You. Are. Lying. To. Yourself."
Heart: "..."
Brain: "******** it. I give up. I'm going to go busy myself with statistics."
 Bleeding Apocalypse · Sun Dec 04, 2005 @ 07:21am · 0 Comments |
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