im so depressed again. I am so lonely and feel like im left behind, the world and ppl are moving forwards and im still tha same. Im in the same spot forever. The line that i have with my friends is thinning and about to snap, im not surprised...its my destiny to be alone. No one to care for me, none to be there when i need them. I have always been this way, being betrayed by those i love.... it happens al the time, not just in this life time but my past ones as well. They all tire of me and my constant battle over my emotions, i have no real friends they all want me to change to suit what they are looking for. I wear a mask to hide my emotions, to hide my pain. Forever, forever hiding this pain i have. All i get close to die, or leave me. Im done placing myself out there to get hurt again, im closing myself out from the world. None shall pass my barrier and then i will be safe. A hermit is the life i should lead, and i will... very soon. A blade is the only friend i have, the only thing that can save me from my pain. i feel so much pain in this heart of mine, so many wounds it has endured, im just a bother to the world. I am an annoyance to the people who i thought cared for me, i am so sorry that i made you put up with me, everything will be ok soon, soon i withdraw from humanity. I was right with whati felt like i always am, im a bother to those i care for and the closer they get to me the more they all realize how much of a bother i am to be around.
 Kitiara_fox · Thu Apr 09, 2009 @ 08:00pm · 0 Comments |
