Living on Lonely Avenue is hard, Mr.Charles. Tell me how it ends?
I've come this far and let myself throw it all away. Seriously, how can I be so naive? I haven't considered any less or more, really. Perhaps it's just how indifferent life can be. Or maybe that I just don't give a crap anymore. Is that really a negative thing?
If people were to think more often maybe the world wouldn't be so lonely. Is God just what I need in my life? Maybe I want to be alone. Maybe I want to do what I want to do. I'm not hurting anyone. Or at least it's not like I practice it.
By taking all the rides on the 'emotional' rollercoaster I've come to the end to realize how little I care, each time I ride it over and over, I care a little less. I know that there is always going to be a handful of idiots who are going to hurt me. That's okay because it's only natural. But I would like to ride a roller coaster of emotions that doesn't require the screaming and crying. That would be a true day to recall.
What happened to memories? Or just being ******** kids.
Everyone wants to act like they are old enough for anything and that they can act 23 years old and walk around like that. ******** D<
Hey, what the hell is wrong with me. I keep falling in love with the wrong choices, and the people who fall in love with me- can't be with me because either way I try to love back I'm going to screw it all up. Boo hoo cheer up emo kid.
I don't understand how people can take things like 'love' for granted. When someone loves you, and feels incredible feelings for you how can you not thank God? How can you go through your day, not telling that person how much you appreciate their feelings every damn moment you can? How can you not call that person and tell them everything they mean to you? Everyday because you thought about them?
Because no one understands what it's like to not have the love someone gives to you. The love that you will never get again. Why don't people enjoy the friends they have? Love the real friends they have?
Why do they wait until their ********' gone to realize how much they miss them?
You know, I have no idea.
Because if I ever had a girlfriend or boyfriend I'd treat them like ********' royalty.
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Don't you realize how much I hate you?
I know their are assholes who've ruined my life, and their are sometimes were I feel the other people around me deserve all my hatred and every bit of my despise of the human species.
Unfortunately, I'm a good moral person and being an a*****e is not in my nature.
Yeah, people are horrible- but I refuse to go down that level. I am a ********' great person and I will continue being that way to everyone. Because I know that I would want that same respect.
I will always be who I am. One day.
One, ********, Day.
I will show ALL you bitches up. I will have everything I've ever dreamed of- I will live the life beyond your mental fantasy capabilities. I will live the life of a KING. I'm going to do it. I'm gonna work hard, and I will do it on my own. ON MY ******** OWN.
Because you either are my friend, support me, and are real to me-
OR YOU GET THE [********] OUT OF MY LIFE.
 Pain-Killer 4 Dead Angels · Wed Mar 18, 2009 @ 05:08am · 0 Comments |
