Why is it so hard to fall in love...?
Every time my head turns to her place I just can help but to keep in mind that graduation is already coming...So why worry? You have lots of girls to see and chat with in the future.. and maybe even prettier than her. But it is really hard to do everything right....
My heart just unconsciously pounds non-stop every time her eyes catch mine and all I can do is smile. Not the smile like a surprising smile but... a normal smile like you've been laughing about something just seconds ago.. like that.. kind of...
And the only wish that I am meaning to come true is that she would know how much I truly love her and I don't even need an answer of a yes or no, just a simple manner that she knows and not just ignoring it, like nothing is happening in my heart.
I don't even know if this is true love... This may be even the first time...
As I have read shoujo mangas or some fanfics about gooey romance... which I totally felt disgusted about but still a somehow helpful way to know what love really is... its still so unpredictable...
All I can say now.. is that ... I love her so much that I even cried every time my heart starts to throb because of pain about some information my friends share with me about her...
So emo-ish... but what the hell... I can't stop myself.
Can't even stop the pain...
Can't stop the beating...
Can't stop the heartache...
Can't stop destiny... fate... somehow bitter at times...
"Life is such a bittersweet hell...."
 _tildet_ · Fri Mar 13, 2009 @ 12:52pm · 0 Comments |
