The mind is a quier thing... The time is 4:18P.M. on January 12f(?), 2009. When I say 'quier', I don't mean homosexual, I mean ********' weird. For instance, I see my self as a caring individual most of the time, and my imaginings perpetrate that description... sometimes. Others, I can see myself doing terrible things, and laughing through it all. Though I rarely dream in my sleep, I day dream alot. Once, I saw myself holding a dove, stroking it, and watching as it took to the skies, singing in joy. I smiled as it flew to it's home nest. Then, I saw my self holding a dove in my hands. I stroked it, and smiled as I wrapped my fingers around it's neck, strangling the life from it. I laughed when I snapped it's neck and lifeless form fell limp in my grasp. I'm terrified of my mind. It can go to such extreme ends of the spectrum in the blink of an eye, and I feel almost no remorse for these thoughts. What would happen if this darker me came through in to the world? What havoc would he wreak? Maybe this darkness is nothing more than a fantasy born of my suroundings and the collective evils from all of the many books I've read, storing up in my head for years only to come smashing into my subconcious to play havoc woith my psyche... I don't know. But I worry sometimes... The time is 4:27 on January 12f(?), 2009.
Am I A Monster?
 Wind Spirit22 · Mon Jan 12, 2009 @ 10:30pm · 1 Comments |
