Well, Thanksgiving is on its way as is Christmas.
I kind of dread Christmas. Not really because my wallet is about to damaged but because people always ask me what I want for Christmas and about 99% of the time I don't know what to say.
xDD
I had something typed out about all of this but I just deleted it because it was just... pointless. Long story short, my tastes compared to mainstream media is odd so no one ever knows what to get me so almost always they give me gifts that I just don't like. My mom keeps on giving me dresses and girlie clothes even though she knows that I don't like any of that. And I can promise you that she KNOWS.
The most urgent matter at hand is what I'm going to do come January. I'll be going somewhere in January and then right after to the Phoenix Comicon.
Bah-hum-bug?
Also, I'm stressed. But not. I call it NINJA STRESS. Love the fancy name? I do too. Basically I'm not as bad as I was last year but it still lingers there and gnaws on me. It's getting worse, namely because the relationship between me and my mother is starting to strain. After my month-long vacation in New Jersey during the summer with my other sister and her boyfriend I managed to get my cool back and not feel sick every time I as much smelled the woman. However, it's starting to come back and I'm just going: "well, ********."
A lot of this is due to her invading my space bubble again. I swear to crap that if she latches onto my flipping arm again that I'm going to send her mental projectiles of hate. I don't know what-the-hell is going on with her but she's constantly asking me if I trust her and if I would tell her my secrets. Aha... that's... funny. I said yes, of course- what am I supposed to do, say no? Either way, this entire semester I was able to stand her but that's beginning to thin away again. I don't feel like repeating history, but I WILL say that sometimes I wonder how the hell she manages to be a therapist. I don't want to know what she's telling those people because I know that what she does sure as hell ain't work on me. I can see her tactics... so... clearly. Sometimes I'm not sure if she's stupid or if she just thinks that I am.
Not much left to say on that. I'm going to do some homework now, work on a fanfiction, and then clean my room while I ponder what to do as gifts for people during Christmas.
This end of the year shouldn't be as bad as the others- but only because I'm not going to let it be. I can't afford to let it get to me when I'm so close to moving out. Once I'm out and by myself, then I can just let loose.
I'll be looking forward to it. I just wish that I didn't have to wait six months for it to happen. It's kind of like driving the slowest train wreck in the world. xDD
MythicalYoko · Wed Nov 19, 2008 @ 04:53am · 2 Comments |