THIS IS SOO FRUSTRATING.AND COMPLETELY UNFAIR
D<
Suzu-niichan has a kickarse new outfit.
And I'm stuck trying to make my own visual kei pants.
I wore them to school once, but it turned out messy because I sewed it wrong.
And now, I've been trying to sew it good for the past...how long.
And it snapped. IT'S GETTING DAMN ANNOYING.
It's getting me frustrated.
I want to pull out my hair.
I want to shoot my dog. (nooo. I LOVE MY DOGG D: )
I want to hang Suzu.
I want to blow up the school.
I want to blow up this stupid country.
I want to laugh,
I want to cry.
Right now would be great for me to die.
But I don't want to.
But this stupid thing has got me drained. I can't take it anymore.
I'M A FRICKEN FAILURE.
Damn it.
This stupid thing...it makes me so tired.
I'm just soooo frcking frustrated with myself. And the entire world.
"Violence is never the answer" yeah.
So I'm listening to music, shooting birds with my bow and arrow.
...it's an online game thing though. So no hard done.
Sadly.
I just want something to get my frustration out.
Damn it. I was suppose to go to school Visual Kei-like, and be all "Goshujinsama....blahblahblah."
damn it....
I want Miyabi.
I want Tetora.
I want Chihiro.
I want Suzu to get over here, and let me sit in his lap and let out all this frustration.
I want to climb into his lap, wrap my arms around him, and cry against his shoulder.
I want to get a frcking credit card, buy a frcking pair of pants online, and get this stupid crap over with.
I'm not wearing a skirt tomorrow, I'm not. I'm going to do a Visual Kei thing, and be Moe.
I don't...
******** s**t.
Screw this. Screw that. Screw you.
WHATEVER.
I don't care anymore.
-sigh-25 minutes later, I'm in my pajamas out of the very early shower,
sitting in Suzu's lap holding my L plushie to my chest, leaning back against niichan and letting him play with my hair.
26 minutes later, I'm playing Bowman 2-bird hunt-, still sitting in his lap, and mumbling about how much I miss Tetora.
28 minutes later, I scratch my thigh on the stupid desk, and mumble inconheret curses as Suzu rubs if for me.
30 minutes later, I'm listening to "Kenjou Straight" and ready to sleep with Suzu.
And ready to kill off humanity.
30 minutes isn't long enough. I have a really bad temper. God, help me.
