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L's Diary: Real World (Part Five) |
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He sat in the small confines of darkness, pondering exactly how he had come to be in this situation. The best answers L could come up with consisted mostly of the fact that he was nearly unable to resist Raito's advances.
The brunet's head was tucked in to this shoulder, breath a moist haze of euphoria that threatened to engulf him once more. L laid in an unnatural (well, unnatural to him, but natural to others) position: flat. His arms encircled the waist of his lover, wanting desperately to satisfy him, yet unable to do so. For the past week, there had been so much... action.
Over the past week, the two had done everything from sneaking kisses during work hours to flirting in front of the Task Force to even making sexual innuendos when only Matsuda was in the room. The tension built by day had been relieved through nightly shower episodes (consisting of binding L to the shower head and Raito violating his body in nearly every possible way) and the post-shower euphoria the two would fall victim to every night while Raito snuggled up to L like a small puppy.
Although the past few days had been the perfect dream, the raven-haired man now sat in the darkness, silently cursing himself for what happened the previous night.
"Ryuuzaki," Raito's breath was hot on his neck, hands exploring the bare skin beneath his clothing. Each touch sent another shiver up his spine. he'd expected for the feeling to wear off over time, but it had only strengthened in intensity. "I want you."
"I want you too, Raito." L had smiled, wrapping his more-than-willing arms around the younger man's neck. He pressed his lips against the student's, eyes fluttering shut.
"No, I mean... in that way." Raito stopped suddenly, becoming serious. He took in a semi-shuddery breath and continued. "I want to be inside you, L. I want to love you the right way."
"R-raito..." His hands were shaking. "I-I don't... kn-know..." Insecurity invaded the innermost depths of his mind and threatened to push him over the edge. Threatened him to stand up quickly and proclaim that what they had was wrong. "But I... don't kn-know if I c-can. What if I'm... wh-what if I'm n-not good enough?"
"Ryuuzaki," He pressed a fingertip to stuttering lips, "If you're not ready, then I can wait." A kiss. "And you'll never be 'not good enough'." Another kiss. "But, L, I just don't know how long I can stay away before you drive me insane..."
L bit his lip, tasting a bit of Raito and some frosting from the half-finished cake that was sitting on his nightstand.
I want to make him happy... Another bite of cake reached his lips. He half-heartedly allowed the jumble of fluffy crumbs to enter the vicinity of his mouth. He secretly wished it was Raito's tongue instead.
"Oh, L..."
He looked down at the source whose head had slipped in to his lap. A smile broke across the brunet's godly face, instantly illuminating the atmosphere even in his sleep. He brushed back a strand of hair that had fallen across Raito's face and bent down to kiss his sleeping lover.
He wanted to make Raito happy. He would do anything. And even though L was slightly uncomfortable at the thought, he decided it would be worth it if his partner was Raito.
If he could, then he would.
 minikimii · Wed Sep 03, 2008 @ 02:10am · 0 Comments |
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