Everyone is afraid of something, and if you say your not, that's good for you. I'm afraid of many things...like...the dark, large bodies of water..etc. But another thing I'm afraid of is love. I know, crazy thing to be afraid of right? I've learned a few things about it though. I love my boyfriend more than anything in the world and that's was scares me most. I know that a lot of people are trying to ruin my relationship with him or make me unhappy, or say things about him that aren't true. Hell, I had those problems as soon as we started dating, and of course they get progressively worse. So he says that I've got one more chance not to screw this up. So, I'm doing my damnedest to prevent anything from happening. But I also know that he could just get sick of me and leave. So I had 25% chance that he will stay, 25% chance he will get tired of me, 25% chance that he will find something better, and a 25% chance that one of my thousands of stalkers or my stupid actions will drive him away. Actually, I'm afraid that everything I do will drive him away..how silly right? I love him just that much. I've never liked anyone this much, and in a way I'm afraid I like him too much, that maybe I should detach myself from him. I'm always double checking what I did in a day, making sure I didn't do anything that would upset him. There have been too many times where someone told me to just leave him, but I couldn't, he didn't really do anything wrong, and everything that was wrong with our relationship was my fault anyways. I feel like if I lose him I may never be capable of loving another person again...strange but so true, I'm putting my all into this relationship, even if that means leaving my heart in the line of fire....
 Peprika · Fri Feb 29, 2008 @ 08:08am · 0 Comments |
