mrgreen when was money ever a problem? money n'ever a problem I love money. I wish I had enough to go by all the time so that maybe I can afford medication. Since that is not a problem either then I should not be concerned. I was really unhappy that those things happened to me. I felt that I've been in utter ruin that they didn't let me have my meds. Medication is important because without it I would probably be in some form of a bother? I would be in some form of a reliance to people that really did seem to have taken the best. So I just wake up to whine because I couln't remember what had happened. Music doesn't help and life really sucks big time. Sometimes I really had hope that things could have turned out a better way. My situation has not caused much happiness for anyone. It only causes me to sink into more depression. It's really easy to think that you can turn back time all the time, but it isn't. Anyhow, death really is not inviting at a time like this. *smigs*
I love this place because this is some joy to sit here and replay scenes that mattered. I am really hurt more than ever when, is it something they did? Now even that slipped my mind. Sometimes if not all the time, describing your addiction by ... would probably mean that ... then again that really is not fair. I hate when people talk to me. Honestly, if everybody learn to shut their big fat mouths most of the time than maybe they actually understand, but they don't so I would not be in my place. I wish that I was wrong, but I am not wrong. They really took it out pretty bad. I shouldn't be oh so unhappy. Oh so glum out. Now I can't even tell myself to remember things that are important. I wake up and blank out on lessons that matter most and is supposed to be taken to heart and not taken lightly, but that didn't happened because I remember that this was supposed to be some hour where I can express what I feel is right. This is not what had meant to be. So screw it! I hate how it seems like I am under the influence or something, but it isn't since I really am like in need of a joint. What joint? a tibia. Oh yeah, a joint. Actually I just need some, even if it hurts, it's a lot better. The affects of it later just gets rather painful. DEGRADING. Oh yeah. I woke up just to tell you that maybe if life isn't so worth living than don't live. That would be so easy for someone like you to say. Don't live. uh ahhaha moments of people blowing off in your face. Really it's ridiculous. They are calm and not unhappy. Not hurtful in anyway. Just not ready to express anything. DULL yeah. It's marked dull. "I wish I didn't take advantage of her." Huh, what are they talking about? What are they saying? Take advantage of what? I never used half that s**t. Oh kindly to tell me that these emoticons displayed on the side didn't even bother me. Ohkay so it didn't bother me, but it does because someone really complained. Times when things get less demanding would be that I can't remember what is important. Don't I have something to do then to sit on my a** and beg. I wish that...then again I rather not. I rather not because maybe I am too upset or tired because of my inability to get up. whee I don't know what this means, but I am annoyed at what they are saying. Is it some natural defense system built in or is it because they had not cared. Who gives a damn what you think anyways. Wake up again and think that something is worth fighting for or maybe something...like something stuck and clogged in my mouth. It's really not that great. It's like oh, it's just a baby. Oh my god just an adorable baby....oh it's just so cute and cuddly...Oh adorable...but it hurts like hell. and believe me...nothing is worst than hell. Nothing is worst than hell. Yeah, hell. exclaim cry neutral rofl 4laugh stare Really it's really annoying.
Leslie827 · Thu Feb 21, 2008 @ 01:15pm · 0 Comments |