Yush. I would very much like to know the answer of this. I find that I am becoming ever so jealous of people I shouldn't be jealous of. It's not in my nature. I'm usually a stuck up cruel b***h who doesn't give a s**t about anyones feelings. I guess that's wear the envy comes in. I'm not smart, or all that pretty, my personality sucks..I don't really have anything going for me. I'm pretty sure that eventually when I hit 23 I'll look better. But for now I'm worried about how I look, act and feel now. There is something about people that draws them in to you. There is something about me that draws people in and then shoves them back out.
*I'm not that smart
*I'm not really all that pretty
*My personality is terrible
*I make horrible first impressions
--really the only thing that works out in anybodies favor is...well nothing. I play video games and eat a ton of junk food..big deal.
Over the last few days I've learned what I'm lacking as a girl and these things run around my mind constantly. I've observed enough guys to know that they are all pretty much looking for the same thing, they act different but end they are the same. It bothers me, that I lack everything that they want. It bothers me that there is nothing I can do to fix the lack of what they want....or maybe I'm just being weird and writing my feelings is going to get me in trouble again.
But these are what the little hamsters on the wheels in my head think about all day.
"Why can't I be like all the other girls?"
 Peprika · Sat Feb 09, 2008 @ 06:35am · 1 Comments |
