I don't really know what's wrong with me lately. My appetite has steadily decreased, my tolerance level has fallen apart, my mood has been far from upbeat, and my sleeping pattern has become so irregular that I hardly get any rest. I'll lie awake for hours, just waiting to fall asleep, and when I finally do, I'm awoken at random intervals, can't get back to sleep, and by the time I have to get up, I'm completely exhausted. Even sitting at home today being sick, I can't get myself to sleep. I've tried everything I can think of. Hell, even Nyquil hardly helps. My body is begging for rest, but my mind just won't give up the marathon. The only time I seem to be able to sleep is when I have so much on my plate that I just crash. All I ever feel like doing is sleeping, and I haven't felt that way in a very long time...since my nearly year-long depression a while back.
I feel so overwhelmed by everything, and I can't seem to find a reprieve. At the same time, I know that a lot of people are going through this kind of stuff, too, so I really have no right to sit here and complain about it. This is one of those situations where people just sit there and tell me, "Well, get over it." As much as I don't want to hear them say it...they're completely right. I would add a counter-argument to defend myself, but what would be the point?
I'm just...so drained right now. I feel weak and beaten down.
...But who am I to complain?
 Chibi Pierceye · Mon Feb 04, 2008 @ 10:24pm · 0 Comments |
