I find that sometimes in life there are times when there is nothing else to do but cry.It just seems like certain times call for nothing but tears.I have been through some of those times, and I must say that they are not that great. You feel vulnerable. You get it in your head that nothing you do ever turns out right. And no matter what you do, you seem to always end up on the bottom. It really isnt a good feeling.
Well, I have been feeling like this for a while now. some of my friends say it is depresion, but I don't think it is. I think that maybe it is understanding. Understanding that most likely, I'm not gonna find that person who is willing to date me. Understanding that lifge doesn't go on forever. Understanding that a hidden identity means misery.
I don't know. Maybe understanding is depression. What I do know is that you shouldn't walk around wearing a mask. Don't be afraid to be who you are. Let the world know just who it is they are dealing with.
I may be young, but I realize that I have spent to much of my life already hiding who I am. I am tired of being the kid everyone likes but no one wants to be with. I am tired of being the straight kid because I am not. I'm gay and I enjoy it too. I'm tired of pretending that nothing is wrong, because every now and again something is wrong.
Everyone has problems. some are worse than others. It's important to remember though that all of them can be solved some way or another. Whether it is throught talking, or crying, or admittance is up to you. Just try and make they end up ruling your life like I have been letting mine.
 Trae Blackhawk · Tue Jan 22, 2008 @ 08:41pm · 0 Comments |
