Why are you making it so complicated. I was actually starting to want to be around you again. We were actual starting to act like friends again. WHat the hell , happened this time. Why do you always have to be so jealous. Do you hate her or something when she gets more attentiont hen you. WHat about my other friend. Your enemy. WHat's going on. Is it true that when she's around you're all over me. I really haven't noticed. I you cared you'll lose my attention. Well, it's not helping. You're jst making it harder to want to be around you. I don't even think it's that. I think it's the fact that you ego is crushed when no one pays attention to you. Remember when I said I;'m jealous o an actor. I'm not even jealous of an actor anymore. i can see straight through your fake appearance you so happen to come up with. WHat the hell is your problem. WHuy do you insist on being the center of everyones universe.
You obvisously get mad at me over stuff. Not as often as I get mad at you ,but sdtill. Well , why don't you say soemthing then? Don't be such a coward and stand up to me. If you feel something towards me then rtell me don't hide it behiond your back. I don't know about you ,but I 'm tired of your two-faced acts and your hatred to them behind their backs. If they knew how much you act. Like I do then They wouldn't love you as much anymore. I know they wouldn't but I 'm not going to ruin it for you just because it makes uyou happy even though it pisses me off. Does it matter what I feel. No maybe i should stop caring. Because it's obvisously ginving you advantaGES. I wouldn't even talk to you. Do you even see that I'm pissed off at you. How about everytime I try to talk to someone you have to get iin the conversation and push me out. Oh yeah , because my friends who used to love me. Love you so much more ,because I'm, just the old friend no one cares about,because they found someone better. Oh no one can stay mad at You.. I can. You don't think so. Well, watch me. It's you who can't live without me. i can see that everytime I;m trying to get away from you or pull away everytime you try to touch me. I don;t want you anymore. I'm not jealous of a actor anymore. I'm jkealous of a two-0faced attentiopn loving b***h! I hope it makes you feel so mcuh better. I hope everyone goes on your side. Everyone can ake your side ,because Then I'm better off witout them too. I can't wait to get out of middle school and into a high school wehwere I never have to see any of you again. I don't have to see anyones face or think twice about them. I hope I don't run into anyone like you and everyoine else I know. I want this miserable year to end. And leave and start all over again , because i don't want this anymore. I may sound selfish. I don't want this and I sdon't want that. Maybe I should be selfish for once. I'm always doing things for you. You say you do things for me no your parents do. You say you love me. I'm like your sister who can;'t be replaced. Quit lyimng it's not fooling me anymore. You have used me for so long. Just because your ex lioved next to me and a girl you loved next to me. Maybe if you love thewm so much. Then don't even stop[ at my house. Quick using me as an excuse for everything and stand on your on for once in your fake life........
 ACrimsonRevo · Sat Jan 19, 2008 @ 08:17am · 0 Comments |
