Right now im having alot of problems in real life. *sighs* so i will not be on very much. I apoligize to all that this effects. I will still be on every now and then, but for the most part i just wont have time. *sighes* I hate to feel like this place is a chore. I used to use this place to escape, now i just want to escape from this place. Guess just alot of real life stuff has gotten me down. But when ur alone u learn to realize who ur real friends are, online and offline. *shrugs* I dont have much to say anymore. Guess the depression has finally set in. U know that wonderful feeling of being alone and not having anybody there for u. When u think ur on the edge of loosing it all. When u loose the will to live and ur not sure what keeps u alive from day to day. I feel all that plus even more that i couldnt begin to explain. I feel horrible. I just dont know what to do with myself anymore. I dont see a point to anything anymore. I have an empty void in my heart and soul. Something that cant be mended easily. I just dont understand life anymore. Whats the point? Ive lost all hope. So what keeps me here? All the pain and suffering is just to much. But meh, oh well. Such as life right? That is what everyone tells me. To move on. But will time really make everything alright, or is it just ment to get worse? I dunno. crying
Ankokujidai no Hime · Sat May 14, 2005 @ 06:05pm · 0 Comments |