just some poems i made up on my mind and wrote down in my deepest&&darkest times.
"You"
you say it will be over
you say it will end soon
but really it will last forever
cuz when you hurt me mentally and verbally
the scars stays on my heart and never goes
you tell me this and that
you tell me all these things
but i always think;
if those things were even true
if you were really honest
you can say sorry
you can say dont worry
tell me to do some other things
to take my mind off of it
but it will never be gone
you can give me hugs
you can give me your love
tell me you love me
but it will never be same
before we that day had happened
you ask me whats wrong
you ask me if i can tell you
i thought i would be strong
but i bursted into tears
and now my fears are haunting me
you saw me cry
you saw me in tears
i have to say you did try
but now i have cried too much
my eyes, so dry..
i just want to die,
leave this evil world,
all because of just one person
you ruined my world,
i cant believe
for one second,
i actually thought you cared.
and heres another one
The Feeling Hurts, by Shirlee--myself--
Its not school that I hate; it really isn't..
Its not the teachers,either;
Its not the falls, even the trips I always tend to do;
It really doesn't hurt me, REALLY...
Its not the cuts or the bruises I get that bother me either; and I know it isn't.
Its not that I never talk that hurts me;
Its not that I never smile or laugh that hurts me;
And Its not that I'm a loner that hurts me either;
Its not the arguments, and its not even the fights that I always get into hurt me..
Its not that NO ONE CARES ABOUT ME hurts me;
It really doesnt hurt too much;
Its the feelings...The feelings I get that hurts...
Its those kinds of feelings...Those kind of feelings that I get everyday;
Everyday and everytime when I see you with her;
Holding hands and talking and laughing;
As if there was nothing in the whole wide world can stop you;
As if you guys were on top of the world;
It just HURTS, trying so hard NOT to see it;
But still, I'm watching and;
I'm thinking, "Am I dreaming?";
And still, hurting it even more;
Is that, I have to live through that pain;
Every five times a week;
And everytime I see,
It just makes the pain become HUGE,
And the pain,
HURTING SO MUCH,
And the problems, becoming BIGGER;
And still.....
I'M LIVING IN THE PAIN;
But I know for sure Nothing hurts more then this;
And I KNOW nothing will ever change it...
But there's absolutely NOTHING I can do now;
Because its waaaay too late now;
Too late to tell you;
that I loved you;
But now,
A great friend told me,
Im better then this,
I didnt deserve this,
What have I ever done to you?
Is loving someone such a bad thing?
Well..
My great friend told me the truth..
One of these days there will be someone out there for me..
But its not going to be you,
So you know what?
Screw you two,
Just screw it,
Because I don't care about jerks anymore.
"You"
you say it will be over
you say it will end soon
but really it will last forever
cuz when you hurt me mentally and verbally
the scars stays on my heart and never goes
you tell me this and that
you tell me all these things
but i always think;
if those things were even true
if you were really honest
you can say sorry
you can say dont worry
tell me to do some other things
to take my mind off of it
but it will never be gone
you can give me hugs
you can give me your love
tell me you love me
but it will never be same
before we that day had happened
you ask me whats wrong
you ask me if i can tell you
i thought i would be strong
but i bursted into tears
and now my fears are haunting me
you saw me cry
you saw me in tears
i have to say you did try
but now i have cried too much
my eyes, so dry..
i just want to die,
leave this evil world,
all because of just one person
you ruined my world,
i cant believe
for one second,
i actually thought you cared.
and heres another one
The Feeling Hurts, by Shirlee--myself--
Its not school that I hate; it really isn't..
Its not the teachers,either;
Its not the falls, even the trips I always tend to do;
It really doesn't hurt me, REALLY...
Its not the cuts or the bruises I get that bother me either; and I know it isn't.
Its not that I never talk that hurts me;
Its not that I never smile or laugh that hurts me;
And Its not that I'm a loner that hurts me either;
Its not the arguments, and its not even the fights that I always get into hurt me..
Its not that NO ONE CARES ABOUT ME hurts me;
It really doesnt hurt too much;
Its the feelings...The feelings I get that hurts...
Its those kinds of feelings...Those kind of feelings that I get everyday;
Everyday and everytime when I see you with her;
Holding hands and talking and laughing;
As if there was nothing in the whole wide world can stop you;
As if you guys were on top of the world;
It just HURTS, trying so hard NOT to see it;
But still, I'm watching and;
I'm thinking, "Am I dreaming?";
And still, hurting it even more;
Is that, I have to live through that pain;
Every five times a week;
And everytime I see,
It just makes the pain become HUGE,
And the pain,
HURTING SO MUCH,
And the problems, becoming BIGGER;
And still.....
I'M LIVING IN THE PAIN;
But I know for sure Nothing hurts more then this;
And I KNOW nothing will ever change it...
But there's absolutely NOTHING I can do now;
Because its waaaay too late now;
Too late to tell you;
that I loved you;
But now,
A great friend told me,
Im better then this,
I didnt deserve this,
What have I ever done to you?
Is loving someone such a bad thing?
Well..
My great friend told me the truth..
One of these days there will be someone out there for me..
But its not going to be you,
So you know what?
Screw you two,
Just screw it,
Because I don't care about jerks anymore.
haha. yeahh.^^ hope you liked them XD
comment me~.
---shirlee. heart heart
