Currently: Sad
*sigh* My relationship is on the rocks.
It seems my girlfriend is always having problems of her own, and I listen carefully and give advice, and encouragement when needed.
But whenever I have my problems, she says that maybe I should stop talking to her for a while. She is always fishing for compliments and making me feel horrible when I'm not talkative, like I'm being mean to her or something.
Not to mention she's an attention whore. I feel very used. Even when we were just friends she would say bad things about me behind my back. She claims it was just a stage she was going through, and that she's more mature now, but sometimes I feel as if she hasn't changed at all. I love her with all my heart. I truly do, but sometimes she makes me feel like a useless commodity. I don't know what to do anymore.
She's very dependent. And relies on me a lot. But sometimes I want to rely on someone. But it feels like I have no one. ;o;
I've always been a lone wolf. Even I was little, after mom died. I'm more like a parent to my father than he is to me. But sometimes I want to be weak, I can't be strong all the time, it's just too stressful But then there's that little voice that tells me that I can't rely on anyone, and that I'll be fine by myself.
It's just.... I don't know. I feel very depressed right now, it seems like nothing is going right.
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 Pandiecakes · Mon Jun 18, 2007 @ 02:42am · 4 Comments |
