I generally feel like a strong person. I never really felt weak.. until today I kinda felt like I lost to someone while fighting. Its so hard to win against someone who is bigger than you. Espically in every aspect: height, weight, and power. I know how hard it is. Its hard also to get rid of your emotions when in battle. I hurt my leg today.. and as a result I fell and then I got a bruise. I put ice on it so it won't swell. I don't know why but I'm not as strong as I thought I would be.
I'm starting to fear OMG!con. I almost don't want to attend. I can only think of whats going to happen. I don't want to attend more than one day. I figured that much out. Sure its going to kill all my time and everything trying to hang out with the guys from Tennessee but theres nothing else I can do. I don't need to play games... and such. I don't know. Theres a lot of problems. Mark lost his girlfriend last month and such.... and then my friends went awol with that stuff. I don't know what will happen if I did break up because I'm not into it. I'm not feeling good as of late. I was able to look in the mirror and realized what a horrible person I am.
I don't know what my future is. I'm undecided in college... I only like to sew.. I can't drive.. sheesh. I can't do anything really. I don't know what I'll do. I'm such a horrible person.
 Celeste_Orchid · Fri May 18, 2007 @ 05:58am · 0 Comments |
