• a girl is being asked by her man
    can we have unprotected sex
    she thinks and thinks
    she stuck in her mind between
    her man and her desires
    shes stuck in the same spot like time has completely stop
    shes lost
    because she doesn't know if her man will leave her
    or stay with her
    stay wit her just to have sex with her
    again he asks can we have unprotected sex
    shes thinking about what others have been through
    diseases
    death
    pregnancy
    pain
    diseases that will only lead her to suffer in pain even die
    pregnancy that can and will cause her rejection from people
    a pregnancy that she may not want
    and will obligate her to abort
    cause serious pain or even death
    shes thinking
    what should i do
    what if he leaves me afterwards
    what will my family think if i get pregnant
    if i get pregnant should i abort
    have the child
    but i don't want to have a kid now
    i don't have the money
    i'm not ready
    i'll be killing a human being
    that couldn't protect itself
    from anything
    it was bothered in its own sanctuary
    its safe haven
    i will destroy the beginning of its innocent life
    should i put the child into adoption
    no it'll suffer too much
    she keeps thinking about all of this and all her boyfriend can is look at her
    because hes trying to awake her
    from state of shock
    of her daydreaming
    she dead frozen on the spot
    she doesn't know what to answer him
    she so afraid
    of what might happen after her lips recite the word No
    of what he might do
    he might force her to
    he might walk out the door
    or he might understand
    stay with her comfort her
    wait with her till the time is right
    but she doesn't know
    shes heard all of her friend be hurt because they said no to their mans advances
    and resisted their desires
    some got pregnant
    some happen to have passed away
    because as well as getting pregnant they obtained HIV
    their mans forced their girls to have sexual relations
    when they said NO NO NO NO
    they were contradicting themselves
    their desires
    they resisted
    but as she sits there she knows the only that she wants to say is NO