• Why?

    “Why?” you ask me…

    When you feel like your life has no point,

    When you lost the one person in your life that means EVERYTHING to you,

    When you feel like no one is worthy of your trust,

    When you can’t think straight about anything,

    When your life is falling apart,

    When your soul is hiding in the shadows of death,

    When you can’t stand up because you have given up all hope,

    When no one really knows the real you,

    When your heart dies,

    You will finally feel how empty and worthless my soul is.

    And how the blood rushing out of your flesh feels better than the reality…

    Unless you are me, you will never know the true answer of “why”…

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    Dancing, dancing, twirling around

    Hand in hand, they fall to the ground

    He turns her around to know she’s breathing no more

    This feels like an open bleeding sore

    He holds his breath and fights back tears

    He’s still in the place where it confirmed his fears

    She doesn’t know how this happened

    She doesn’t know how this came to be

    Her lover is in pain

    She’s in agony

    He’s getting tired of living

    But it’s only the beginning

    He takes the gun, some bullets too

    And shot his head all the way through

    Sparkling tears in her eyes, she holds out her hand

    She’s come to take him from this land

    He grabs it lovingly, full of surprise

    Here begins her beloved demise

    Hand in hand they walk away,

    Their spirits linger till this day

    Remember their love, remember their pain

    For only from them will our love gain.

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    Never forget
    When i close my eyes,
    I See your Shinning face.
    I remember you,
    I remember you laughter,
    I remember on dark days you held me close.
    And even though it was death the took you from me,
    I still see you smile,
    I miss you.
    I'll wait for you.
    I promise.
    I promise you, that i will NEVER forget!
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    For a second or two...

    I cut myself to fell pain
    So I don’t have to hear them yell
    I cut myself to feel alive
    No one truly loves me
    No one cares for me
    So what do they care
    If I cut myself over and over again
    Everyone doesn’t know the cutter within
    They just see the kind simple person on the outside
    People thinking my anger is just normal
    Thinking yelling at me will solve it
    But it doesn’t, it just makes things worse
    Classmates don’t see me in pain
    Teasing me laughing at me
    Thinking I’m nothing
    Thinking they are better than me
    That is why I cut
    Mostly to forget my pain inside
    Even for a second or two…
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    Forever Gone

    Dark water
    I drown in
    Cold ground
    Walk with me
    Silent screams
    Fill me soul
    Crave blood
    Fed the kneed
    Sweat tears
    Hold them in
    Sharp blade
    Fight stress
    Evil eyes
    Follow me
    Strong pain
    Must surrender
    Lost dreams
    Forever gone
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    Is it worth it?
    How Can some one who i loved More than anything, Who MURDER my Love, Trust, Confadence, and Mind.... Live with himself? Am i every going to get over it? is it possible to get overr it? Dose Love even Exist? If the person i loved so much, lied and smashed me, How am I ever Supost to love again?.... Is Life Really worth this much Pain? -.-

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    I wish you hatred
    I wish you vile
    I wish you insanity
    I wish you lies
    I wish you fault
    I wish you yearn
    I wish you crime
    I wish you burn
    I wish you emptiness
    I wish you sorrow
    I wish you pain
    I wish you will never see tomorrow
    Now that I've wished you my Core and all that Ive done
    I wished you knew how i felt
    I wish you my life
    and that you share My burden

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    Leave My Soul Without Regret.
    Leave The pain Within My Heart.
    Heal The Wounds With Your Touch
    No More.
    Stabbing The Hole More Recklessly.
    I Guess It's Time For You To Die.
    Good-bye Little Bird.
    For You Wotn Fly..

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    Girls
    are like
    apples on trees.
    The best ones are
    at the top of the tree.The
    boys dont want to reach
    for the good ones because they
    are afraid of falling and getting hurt.
    Instead, they just get the rotten apples
    from the ground that aren't as good,
    but easy. So the apples at the top think
    something is wrong with them, when in
    reality, they're amazing. They just
    have to wait for the right boy to
    come along, the one who's
    brave enough to
    climb all
    the way
    to the top
    of the tree

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    Why?
    Why can't you be like everbody else?
    Why do you do that to yourself?
    Why don't you just die?

    I do it because I don't want to be like everbody else.
    I don't think I'm skinny enough. Its a coping mechanism.
    I live to haunt you

    I was told that I was a mistake.
    What did I do?
    I cut myself.
    I was told I wasn't worth it.
    What did I do?
    I took some pills.
    I was told they would send me away.
    What did I do?
    I ran.
    I was told I was a liar.
    What did they do?
    They raped me.

    Iv'e been running ever since.
    Clad in black. From head to toe.
    Covered in scars. They are a mark.
    Purging. To take control

    I live in rebellion. I won't let anybody change me.

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    I wish I could feel your touch
    just once more
    I wish I could hear you whisper
    I am worth dying for
    I wish fairy tales do come true
    because then you
    would have saved my heart
    not cut it in two
    I wish you could hurt
    just like me
    but that can never be
    Wishes or not
    you left me to rot

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    A friend is a flower,
    A rose to be exact;
    Or Maybe like a brand new gate
    That never comes unhached.
    A friend is like and Owl,
    Both beautiful and wise.
    Or perhaps a friend is like a ghost,
    Whose spirit never dies.
    A friend is like a heart
    That goes strong until the end.
    Where would we be in this world,
    If we didn't have a friend?