• What do you do when the voice in your head is no longer yours? When the psyhco you've tried to keep deep inside suddenly becomes the man in the mirror.... Why after all thats happened, i cant do the one thing that used to come so naturally? Inside i yell at myself "JUST SAY IT ALREADY! WHY ARE DOING THIS TO US!? SHE'S RIGHT THERE!" but then i meet a new side to me telling me "it wont work this time".

    It's this new side that i always feared was there, but now i can see him and that compounds my fears 10 fold. Why would he choose now to show? Why does the look in his eyes terrify me to the point that my only safe haven is now a guilt trip every time I step in? Maybe he's right and it wont work but i need to at least try.... but thats not as easy as it sounds. I need to vent my feelings but i dont know to who or when. maybe this IS my way of venting or just an different way of finding that person, either way i dont feel better.