• Everyone jokes around
    They dont realise
    How much those jokes can really hurt
    They don't know what I have been through
    Death is nothing to joke about
    Whether you consider it living or not
    To me it was alive...
    It may have happened naturally
    But losing it still hurt
    It was almost like losing a part of me

    Sometimes I sit and wonder
    What would have happened
    If things turned out differently
    If it hadn't died
    Would it be a boy or girl?
    Who's eyes would it have?
    Who's nose?

    He would have ended things
    But thats ok
    It ended anyways
    He would have been a bad father
    and I a single teenage mother

    God does everything for a reason
    We may never know that reason
    But I've realised he saved me from ruining my life
    I didn't love him
    And he didn't love me
    I don't want to see another child
    Born into a broken family

    I thought I loved him
    But I was just trying to fill the void
    That the one I truly loved
    Created in my heart
    I thought he loved me
    Telling me all those sweet things
    Making me feel special
    When I thought all hope was lost

    But I have stayed strong
    I corrected what was wrong
    I left him
    I talked to my friends
    They are the ones
    Who helped me through in the end