• Today I noticed a strange occurrence
    It touched my heart, just a tad
    I saw you deep in pain, your demeanor unbearable
    Your smile has disappeared
    Where is the laughter I used to love?
    Did it disappear when you broke my heart?
    Or did you feel the pain of the scar you tore on my soul?
    You emotionally stomped me into the mud of shame
    Even made me question the existence I’ve clung to forever
    I find sympathy in your gloom,
    NO, NO, NO!
    Not sympathy, a twisted joy in your suffering
    A taste of your own medicine I suppose
    But, as I stop and ponder on this feeling
    Is it really worth it? To lose a bond cast over years?
    The negative abyss in my heart is saying “Yes!”
    Just throw it to the wind, be carefree in their suffering!
    Let them taste what you feel!” However, the goodness that keeps me sane
    Is pleading, “Love them as you did once before. Friendships aren’t worth temporary feelings.” I snicker at this statement; it amuses me as I sink into the evil
    Let them wallow in their disgusting guilt
    I TASTE THE SWEET VICTORY!
    But, I pause and wonder, just for a second
    Am I really willing to let this go? Am I willing to be cruel and hateful?
    Ignoring the very existence of the one I cherished the most
    It seems so easy for others to do, but why can’t I?
    The mysteries of my heart and soul come to light
    I am not evil at heart, but I’m willing to let it reside
    This is your fault! You’ve made me this way!
    Confusion shrouds my thoughts, pain misleads my judgement
    The warmth of your smile still makes me stumble
    I can’t help but love you.