Not So Sure - Going Away

• Artist: Emo Censor
• Description: My friend has hurt me so bad, I don't even remember my own name. He keeps breaking me down, then building me back up. I can't find a reason for life and he's giving me more of a reason not to stay...
• Date: 01/02/2009
• Tags: memory throat pain writing poetry

I feel this urge to die,
and a strive to keep living.
I don't know what to do,
no matter what he knows.
I wanna leave just go,
I don't know- I just don't.

I feel corned and lost,
all at the same time.
I hold the blade close,
pressed to my own wrist.
I don't wanna leave,
I'm not ready to go yet.

I still feel love for them,
but the blade is so cold.
And I try to let go of it,
but I'm clinching tightly.
So I can't stop the pain,
like I didn't know that.

And now I'm thrown,
back again and forth.
I hold on as tight as I can,
but the blade's on my vein.
I feel the beat of my life,
it's pounding in my throat.

I'm not steady at all,
but somehow I don't fall.

And the memories fly,
but this time I won't cry.
I sit here; and there is gone,
the memories are fading.

And maybe you'll remember,
but I'm going away for now.
And it's going way too fast,
today's already in the past...

Comments

[Summer Fallwinterspring]

An hero.

[anhpoo]

Like the dude below... Don't Sucide! It doesn't help anything. Your just gonna hurt yourself (of course.), your friends, your loved ones... and everyone around you sad So don't kill urself.

[Sasuke-Kuuun]

hey ummm...if this is really how you feel, then dont like...commit suicide...or something cuz like...what about your family? you'd basically be doing what your friend is doing but to your family in a way

[Quzo]

Ah judging by the description your peom needs oxymorons or whatever they are called. Basically stuff like this: "Beloved sweet-heart barsted!" Somthing that seems but suddenly seems bad because of the use of words. 4 Stars.