• I'm being pushed around again
    can't find my ground
    as I fall deep and hard

    I wonder around again and again
    nothings going right
    yet another sin
    to be pushed and stand up right

    I'm surrounded by people
    but I still feel alone
    they turn away
    I guess they don't hear me
    as I call for help

    so I don't have to stay
    everything turns red and dark
    as everyone disappears
    there's only one person left
    but why do I fear him
    is it him I fear
    or the fear to be alone?

    I can't see him anymore
    I think he is gone
    but I can still feel him
    and hear his voice saying, 'Its all right, I'm not going to leave you'

    I believe what he says
    but I still fear to be alone
    am I selfish to fear
    he says I am not
    but its hard to believe

    he protects me
    even when I'm trying to protect him
    he saves me
    when he needs to save himself
    he doesn't care for himself
    only the one's he loves

    he knows what he is to do
    and doesn't listen to the commands they give
    but I am selfish
    I want to protect my family
    but I can't find the strength

    I want to know what to do tomorrow
    and not listen to anyone but myself

    I am a weapon
    but he says no
    is that why he lies dead on the ground
    tears running down my face
    as I am pushed again

    I will live for him
    and wait for my light
    to come again

    the day I die
    is the day I'll be with him
    I won't be pushed
    and I won't listen to anyone but him

    the day I die
    is the day my fear rest
    with my body
    and my soul

    by Tiffany Page Shafer