• No matter what I do…no matter what people say..i always feel like..i don’t belong…ether I once did…or I never did….but in the end…I still feel the same…
    People walk past me…with a stare or a glare…and I feel as if…they had just hit me with their eyes…just because they could… Sometimes I feel so alone…because in truth I feel like I have never really had a true friend… everything was just someone putting on an act…just to get something…or to get someone…someone could use me to get to my friend…just because they wanted to ….. just because they would…and could…get me….without me doing anything about it….because that is how I am…..and I always wish I could change who I am….. nothing ever seems to be the same anymore…..because of ether me….or…no …its me

    I wish I could just run away…because there is nothing for me here anymore…because everything…seems to have ….someone….someone…am I... am I someone.? Or am I living in loneliness….that is what it feels like…it always feels like loneliness….never anything else…because that is what I get for being me…no?

    If I turn my back…I am defenseless….and if I turn and run after what I want….I get out run…funny…I was always so confident…in the beginning…I was very….but not anymore….never anymore…because everyone killed that….everything I am around…I gave people advice…that I can’t even take…. Because I truly don’t believe in it….i never did….maybe once…but no more…just because of all this….i lost myself…inside someone else….and that…is not now apart of me….

    Sometimes I wish I could just disappear…really just go away…I just want to leave…go to Someone’s place….someone I trust…someone like him…like him…he makes me smile…he makes me laugh when others can’t… I love him to death…and when I have him…all I want…is to be in his arms…sometimes I am…sometimes not….but the times I am….I am the happiest I have ever been….but i lost him.. Yes... of course.. I lost him.. Because of what i am.. So again.. i am lost... i am gone...

    I just want to disappear....