• As I sat watching all blood abandon my veins, I tried to remember what this was for
    As I sat on the tile floor
    Too drunk to remember why I drank myself silly
    Too sick from blood loss to remember why it was that I was draining myself dry
    Wishing I had something honorable as my last word
    Wishing someone would drop in this stall to say a quick goodbye
    I wonder why I can’t even hold on to those necessary processes of life
    The bare minimum to stay alive
    And I’ve failed.
    And what is my legacy?
    Some empty bottles and a frighteningly lacerated carcass?
    I look to my womb and apologize to the life that could have been
    I’d have ruined you, as I’ve ruined myself.
    Consider yourself blessed, to have never breathed this air
    And I am sure at that moment
    That whoever I am
    Whoever I was
    At the time of my dying
    Was a sour vile sad girl
    Living under the tyrant of life’s breath
    Oh I must have drank to forget that
    I must have invited these tiles to be my crowning coffin
    To drop me like a feather
    Let life forget me once and for all