• I was always alone
    Lost in my own world of self loathing and pity
    Nothing but darkness surrounded me
    Encasing me in its cloak of hatred
    A cloak black as a storm filled night, and heavy like the burden of guilt
    Reality was a word that drove searing pain into my mind
    Sending spots of white flying across my vision and leaving me vulnerable
    Pain was….nothing, just numbness, cold and icy
    Yet I was content
    Not happy, I could never be happy again and I never will be
    I am a walker of Hell, the world of black flames that shed no warmth
    Free of the words of sympathy that drip with honey and the fake tearful eyes
    Free of the people who are blinded by stupidity and live lives filled with uselessness
    I might have become a bearer of sins and a feeder of blood, but I was bound only by an oath
    An oath of blood and soul to the world of no light in exchange for the power of Fate
    That was all that mattered
    I was no longer the hunted, I became the hunter
    I chose who lived and who died
    My eyes, empty
    My heart, torn to shreds
    And my soul, shattered and lost
    Emotions have long since disappeared from me
    They left me when my heart broke and my eyes became voids of emptiness
    Each day I prove myself to the darkness
    My blood is shed as my oath is renewed day after day
    Questions are asked of me, and I answer each with a blank voice
    The questions are the same each time, as are my answers
    Though just for this day, the anniversary of my oath my last answer changes…..
    “First question, what is happiness?”
    The feeling of elation and no more
    “Second, what is sadness?”
    Only the feeling of loss, nothing more and nothing less
    “Final question, what is love?”
    Hesitating and then answering I said…..
    I don’t know, I never did know, and I never will know……
    He laughed…welcoming me once again into his arms
    “Good…love is useless…you should know that better than anyone”
    Smiling bitterly I answered
    Yes….I should, shouldn’t I?