• I've been sleep deprived.
    I've been forcing a smile, so no one could see the pain I felt.
    I hate it, I want these feelings to disappear, I want it to go back the way it used to be.
    I hate all these mixed emotions.
    I loved you, and you loved me, so why did god have to take you away?
    I wont eat and I wont drink, so maybe...I'll join you in a few days.
    I miss you, your cool light lips on mine, your arms holding me as close as possible, I cant live without those things.
    Why couldn't god take me to?
    Why couldn't I die in the car crash with you?
    Did I do something wrong, to desevrve all this pain?
    I'm tired but my eyes wont close, sleep deprivation.
    The smile no one can see is fake, no one should see the pain I feel.
    I want things to go back to the way they were.
    I hate all these mixed emotions.