• Chapter 1

    Why is this happening to me?

    I am holding Roy's hand even though my mind is yelling out Lesters name. Afterall, how can i argue with the will of my heart? The same heart that has never shred this much loud beats for Lester but i refuse to let go of him. Even when i know Roy will cry to see me with him again everytime i am near Lester, i still hold onto both of them. 'Why? I ask myself why?'

    As these thoughts filled my mind I heard Roy asking me "Oh katherine, what are you thinking so much about my love?" I feared that the thoughts in my mind would come out from my mouth so i sat silently and shook my head. This is the night i agreed to see the gazing stars with Roy on his rooftop. Although the stars were beautiful my fears twinkled louder. As i sat there silently Roy put his arms around me and said "Is something bothering you?" I wanted to scream out 'YES', but I didn't let it out. I told him 'No honey just mesmerizing'.

    Keeping everything to myself is killing me on the inside.

    Next morning i woke up to the sound of my phone ringing. It was him. It had to be him. Lester was calling me. I took the phone . "Darling its our anniversary today, i hope you're ready for our date" I gulped and replied.'Yes. How could i ever forget?' He told me he wanted to see how beautiful i would look. Of-course he did! But someone else wished the same. It's been two years since Me and Lester started dating but surprisingly i have managed to give away my heart to someone else.

    Lester is the man i fell in love with two years ago when we were about to finish High School. This man who meant so much to me, now means nothing to me. About a month ago, my parents died in an accident. Yet Lester failed to comfort me or make me feel any better. I questioned him "Where are you Love? Won't you come to me?" . He was busy buying a car for himself and didn't show up. As i lay on my pouch a young man approached me. Yes! it was Roy. That's how i first met him.

    Even though i met this young man for the first time, he managed to put out comfort unlike Lester. Who cared less to even try. That night i started thinking to myself. 'Maybe i am making a mistake!' Roy is the new beam of light in my darkness. Lester was a string of wool who couldn't hold on tight while i stitched a whole outfit for him with my feelings. I sensed a beautiful beginning as soon as we met each other. This was never the kind of feeling i felt when Lester and i conversed. Even though i sensed the wrong in it, I decided to explore it.

    Tell me, was I wrong to fall in love with him?