• She looks at herself in the morning in the side view mirror on her dresser. PAIN is one word she sees not a face not a nose not a mouth.
    PAIN is what has filled her life since a young girl.
    She struggles with a social phobia meaning she is afraid to be around people.
    Not only is she struggling with a true disorder but feels worthless. ugly, and alone.
    She has never fitted in in school either always the one in the corner of the room where she would sit by herself hold the cracker in her hand and watch as others gazed in conversation about friends and other fun stuff.
    This continued in the HighSchool noting the "H" stood for hell or at least it did for her. She was scared to be around anyone, she had no friends, and the few that she did used her and neglected her.
    As if this wasnt enough coming home wasn't fun ever. All she wanted was to have a close loving family.
    She longed to be close to her brothers but it never happened. Her parents fought constantly and her dad was at times abusive.
    She prayed and Prayed to the lord Jesus Christ " Save me, Take me away, Why me Lord , I'll do anything please."
    Soon she became bitter, Heart destroyed.
    She never had anyone to love her. Never had a boyfriend or friends.
    She thought she was outcast to the world.
    Through self mind she started taking a drastic change.
    She would tell herself that she was beautiful and that GOD loved her and thats all that matter.
    That even if she was alone in school she was there for her and know one else.
    She talked to her parents and decided to move with other relatives.
    She is now takin a turn for life and self worh.
    Remeber We are all Worth More Than Words