• After fooling around with Alexander I thought I had just made everything worse.
    I was going to tell Karin. That's it. I was going to tell Karin and then if I had to, I would change schools.
    I dailed the most firmiliar number and hit send.
    It ran for only a few seconds before she picked up. "Hello?"
    I sighed. "Hello, Mom."
    She gasped in excitement. "Mirumi! I haven't heard from you for a long time, kid! How have you been!? I missed my only son so much!"
    I smirked at her enthusiasm and tried to stay calm, or not burst into tears. "Good I guess..."
    She seemed to know exactly what was going on. "What's wrong?" She damanded.
    I took in a deep breath. "It's about Karin."
    "The wedding is off, isn't it?" She said sounding disapointed.
    I nodded. "I think so, yes."
    "What happened? I thought this would work. She was such a nice girl and all..." She said.
    I swallowed, feeling like a complete douche bag. "I... was stupid. I shouldn't have done it in the first place. I shouldn't have even..." Tears formed in my eyes. "I'm the worst kind of person there is."
    She went into comfort mode. "Now, now, Mirumi. It couldn't have been too bad, right? I know my only son would never do something to hurt others."
    "It was an accident. I didn't even know what I was doing. I had been drinking and... he was just so nice... and...-." I felt my heart break and I broke down in tears.
    "You did what? You got drunk and had an affair with a man? Mirumi... I don't know what to say..." She said sounding horrified.
    I nodded and fell on my knees. "I know. I'm such a bad person. I shouldn't be allowed to live, momma."
    She sighed, knowing that when ever I called her momma I was really sorry and would never do it if I had been thinking straight. "It's okay, Mirumi. We're only human. We make these mistakes. She'll understand, I know she will. She's the nicest girl and she would never get mad at you for screwing up once in your life." She said.
    I sniffled and felt my heart race in sorrow. I wanted to cut my chest open and rip my heart out. It was hurting me too much. I didn't want it anymore. "But she should get mad at me. I deserve her anger. I deserve the worst punishment for hurting her." I sob.
    "Do you want me to come over?" She asked with the sound of her standing up and grabbing her jangling keys.
    I shook my head. "No, momma. Don't worry about it. I'll handle everything on my own. I'll call you when I get back from telling her." I say standing up and trying to get myself pulled together.
    "Okay... I'll be home all day, sweety. So if you need anything, just call, alright? I'll be right next to the phone." She promised.
    I nodded. "Thank you, momma."
    "Alright, sweety. I love you." She said softly.
    "I love you too, momma." I say before hanging up.

    I felt horrified standing in front of Karin's dorm room. In fact I thought I was going to faint. I knocked on the door and took in a deep breath.
    "Coming." Said a sweet, almost angelic voice. The door opened and Karin smiled at me. "Oh! Mirumi! What a nice surprise. I wasn't expecting you to be here." She said tilting her head in confusion.
    I nodded and sniffled. "Yeah..."
    She gasped and put her hand on my cheek. "Mirumi! Are you okay? You look horrible! Did you get into a fight with that friend of your's? I'm sorry, Mirumi. Come inside so we can talk about it." She said comfortingly.
    My heart cracked as I realized even farther how much this was going to kill her. I stepped into her dorm and she sat me down on her sofa.
    She sat next to me and looked at me with apologetic eyes, as if this whole thing was her fault. "What's wrong, Mirumi-kun?"
    I sniffled and looked at the floor, knowing that if I looked at her I would get sick or burst into tears. "I broke a couples law."
    She blinked. "What was that, honey?" She said still caringly.
    I took in a deep breath and let it all out. "I cheated on you with my new friend." I say waiting for the screaming and tears to erupt from the only woman, that wasn't related to me, I have loved.
    But it was quiet, infact, it was oddly quiet. No sobbing, no painful feelings of being hit by someone, or anything. It was just peacefully quiet. Which was scary...
    I looked over at her and jumped.
    She smiled sweetly. "I knew something was wrong when I visited you." She said sweetly.
    I blinked in horror. "Eh?"
    "When I came over I saw that something was wrong. You usual talk a lot about your friends and school. But you didn't that time. So knew something was up. And that new boy you had with you when I was over really made it clear. You had sex with that American, didn't you?" She said not getting mad at all.
    I nodded and swallowed, looking at the floor. "Y-yes..."
    What the h***!? Why isn't she mad!?
    She hugged me tightly. "It's okay. And I understand if you want to stay with him." She pulled away and looked at the floor with a depressed stare. "But truthfully, I don't think we can stay together now... It'll be better for our families."
    I nodded. "Yeah..."
    "It'll be okay, Mirumi." She said wrubbing my back. "It'll be fine."

    After that I went back to my dorm and felt somewhat better for coming clean. But not entirely. I felt horrible for causing Karin so much trouble.
    But she'll find a better guy, I know it. I tell myself as I sit down on my couch.
    A bag just randomly placed on my table made me blink in confusion. "What the...?" I leaned forward and grabbed the bag. "What is this?" I think outloud.
    A drawing of a rabbit sitting under a beautiful tree came out of the bag.
    I blinked and felt my face get hot, remembering that I had bought it because it reminded me of Alexander. I put the picture back down on the table and sighed. "I am such an idiot." I growl picking up another bag that seemed to have something bigger in it. I pulled out a small carving of a wolf and smiled. "Oh yeah..."
    A mental image of the house that Alexander had brought me to made me feel warm all over. "I used to come here all the time in the summer. It was so pretty." He had said. "Isn't it pretty?"
    I nodded. "Very beautiful."
    "I've wanted to buy this house for a very long time... But never had enough money..." Alexander said.
    Tears formed in my eyes and looked at the floor. "I'm such an idiot." I say hitting my head with the wolf carving, wishing it was someone's fist. I sobbed and dropped the carving on the floor.
    Someone knocked on the door. "Mirumi?"
    I ignored the voice.
    The door opened and someone gasped.
    My heart was beating too loud in my ears for me to be able to know who it was.
    A warm hand grabbed cheek and the persons arm wrapped around my neck, hugging me tightly.
    I know that smell...
    I looked over and saw blond beautiful hair pressing against my cheek. My arms wrapped around him and held him. The sound of my heart slowed and I could almost hear his breathing.
    "Mirumi." Alexander breathed in my ear.
    I held him tighter. "Just let me hold you, Alexander."
    He nodded and burried his face in my shoulder.
    I sobbed and ran my fingers through his hair.
    He wrubbed his nose against my cheek and straddled me.
    I kissed his neck.
    "Mirumi." Alexander panted.
    I pulled away and looked at him.
    He smiled. "I win?"
    I nodded and kissed his lips.
    He put both his arms around my neck and chuckled.
    I put my hand down his pants and grabbed him faster then he could breathe.
    Alexander gasped and gripped onto my shirt tightly.
    I rubbed the skin softly. "Please? Can I have you tonight?"
    He nodded and panted. "Have me for as long as you like, Mirumi. I won't let anyone else have me besides you."
    I nodded and sucked on his neck.
    He groaned and scooted his hips closer to mine. "Mirumi." He stiffened. "I love you."

    When we were done Alexander stood up and put his clothes on.
    I layed down on the couch and tried to catch my breath.
    He looked at me and smiled. "Are you going to be okay, Mirumi?"
    I nodded and smirked. "I think so."
    He chuckled and sat down on my stomach. "You better." He said leaning down and keeping his face only a small distance from mine.
    I put my hand on his cheek and pulled his face to mine.
    {I have to go again... D***... I hate that I have to leave more often now... Sorry}