• My heart aches with pain as night comes closer. Do you wonder why? I know at times I do, but when it does come I realize. It shouldn't be a surprise any more, but yet it is a surprise. When I close my eyes everything pours into my mind like a waterfall running over a cliff. This nightmares come back to me and haunt me. I toss and turn when they come pouring back. My heart pounds with fear. The people who have hurt me taunt me. Their faces stare me down, making me feel like the small child I once was. That man who took advantage of me...I can still feel his hand touching my cheek, that disgusting hand and his voice that made me want to gag. The woman who gave birth to me, only caused me pain and heartache. She promised so manyy things, but gave so little. How am I supposed to live a hearty, free life when all these things still haunt me? How can I be happy when my heart is heavy? I am heart broken...with tear stained cheeks. This is a true girl, one that does not fret about the small things, but tries to live in the moment...that wants nothing to hold her back... You can't tell me that I'm good for nothing, that my breath is not needed, because I already know that. I never let you people get to me because I know pain beyond YOUR comprehension...